Communion Of Dreams

Happy New Year!

Well, it is for me, since yesterday was my birthday.

And it’s a bit odd, but I do feel as though something is different this time around. Usually, birthdays don’t mean that much to me. And I don’t tend to put a lot of emphasis on just numerical age – mine, or anyone else’s. Besides, 51 isn’t a significant milestone in any way – it’s not a big round number, it isn’t some threshold like 18 or 21, it isn’t even a prime number. It’s just 51.

And yet . . .

. . . something does feel different. Perhaps it is due to the fact that last Thursday I finally got the long-delayed physical exam I initially went to see my doctor for in September and the results were actually pretty good. In spite of all that I have done to myself over the years, I’m in decent physical condition. Surprise, surprise.

So maybe that’s it. Or maybe it’s because I have so much good work waiting for me to do – important work, worth doing well. Not just the conservation work, though there is a *lot* of that. But also work on the care giving book. That’s important, and will be a help to others. I’ve also been recently asked to join the board of a significant arts organization here in the state, as well as to apply for an important local government (volunteer) position – more on that when everything shakes out. There’s even a publisher who has shown some interest in Communion of Dreams, though I’ve been down that path enough times to not expect a pot of gold at the end. All of these things tend to bolster one’s mood.

So last night, as we watched a bit of the City’s fireworks display from our front porch, I felt happy. Productive. Strong. With a certain . . . resolve. I feel as though I have recovered a lot over the last year, found that parts of me have been hammer-hardened and honed properly.

It is a good feeling.

Whether it will last long, or not, time will tell. But I feel more complete, more prepared to move on and do the work before me, than I have in a very long time.

Happy New Year.

Jim Downey

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No, no my friend- 51 IS significant number.
It’s the start of a 2nd half-century of ever-better prospects and aspirations.
And given what You’ve accomplished just since I’ve known you (gods-can it actually be almost 30yrs?). I for one will be waiting to see what you come up with in the next half-century.

Comment by Gerhardt

“Maybe it’s true that life begins at fifty. But everything else starts to wear out, fall out, or spread out.” –[Phyllis Diller]–

If you’re doing better at 51 than you did at 50, enjoy it. Especially since it sounds like you’re in shape to make it through the next half-century.

Comment by ML

FWIW, I think this is a nearly perfect blog post. It’s intelligent, well-written, self-reflective and explores notions common to us all in aging and milestones. I’ve returned to read it a few times in the past few days and am glad you shared it and that it indicates you’re in a good place. Thanks.

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